How come I end up where I started?
So,
I finished reading Choke. And when I went to the mall on Tuesday I bought Bright Shiny Morning, Are You There Vodka It’s Me Chelsea, and Murder on the Orient Express. I’ve started the first two. The vodka one is a collection of super funny short stories that I like to read before bed because they make me happy. The first book I read when I have time during the day. I don’t quite know how I feel about it right now. I really don’t like how James Frey doesn’t really use punctuation or paragraphs and he doesn’t care about grammar. And so far lots of bad things have happened to people. But whatever. I think I’ll get something by David Sedaris next.
Last week I got sushi. It was delicious. Mmm. And then I went to Mapleview for my first time ever. Yeah, it has taken five years. Then I went to the Orange County Social Club, also for the first time ever. I came back bitter, sad, angry, and I smelled like a giant cloud of smoke. I wish my friends wouldn’t smoke. It’s just such an unhealthy thing to do. Anyway. I told my whole you know who story to somebody new. Somebody who doesn’t know me very well to see what an impartial person would say. And there were a lot of ohs and oh nos. I put some serious thought into just letting all this stupid stuff go. What’s done is done. But, if you know me even a little bit, you might have realized by now that I’m not good at just letting stuff go. I hold grudges for a long long time. But I really considered not saying any of this. But whatever. Do you ever feel sorry for the way you made me feel? That is a totally serious question. You must have realized that I must have been really hurt in order to have written so many awful things. Do you feel even a little bit bad? Probably not. Do you ever wonder why I got so upset? I guess not.
Oh well. Thinking about it still makes me a little sad and disappointed. I think that’s it above all else. I’m disappointed in how things turned out.
Anyway.
I saw The Fall on Friday night and it was AMAZING! You should go see it. Um. I got two more dresses at the mall today. Generally I’m not a big fan of JCPenny. But that’s where both of my dresses are from. And I also got satsuma stuff from the Body Shop. And a free sample from Godiva. I really truly cannot believe how hot it is.
Oh and stuff with the brother is way worse than I thought before. Way worse. And I can’t help but to think that this wouldn’t be happening if my mom was still alive. And that makes me even more sad.
-Me
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