So,

I am overwhelmed like woah.  It turns out that my one month of substitute SLPing is going to be more work than expected.  Instead of the part-time caseload I thought I’d be getting, I’m getting a full caseload that includes three classes of kids with autism.  THREE.  And it gets better.  My ex-supervisor is getting a grad student for the one month left of school and the summer (what I was last year), but she’ll be doing a lot of testing which will make her unavailable.  But her student needs hours so guess what!  I get to pseudo-supervise 2 days after graduating.  This should be…interesting.  Although I may not sound it, I actually am pretty excited!  I know half the kids and this is the population I want to work with.  So…

For the past 4 days, I have been having awful headaches and feeling sick all day, every day.  And it’s caffeine/coca-cola withdrawal!  I went from drinking about 2 bottles of coke and 2 cups of coffee each day to just a cup of coffee. 

The End for now.

This will be our year, took a long time to come

I started a new blog.  Since I love wordpress so much, it’s also on wordpress.  The link is here.

-Me

I have come to the conclusion that I like getting up early.  I woke up at about 8:30 today and was at Starbucks by 9:20.  I read about 70 pages of the James Frey book.  And I had a venti vanilla latte, as usual.  But this time I said that I wanted it for here and they made it in a real cup!  It tasted even more delicious than usual.  Hm.  Then at about 12:15 I went to Hargraves Community Center.  And I read my other book for a while and then got in the pool, which felt fabulous. Oh goodness.  I’m red in a few places now, but that’s okay.  The best thing is that it takes less than 10 minutes to walk there and it’s free.  And I don’t even care about walking around in my bathing suit in front of other people.

Um.

I had really super delicious strawberry cobbler at Elmo’s.  And I found a place that has the second best vanilla milkshakes-The Loop.  And I bought really beautiful sunflowers at the farmer’s market on Saturday.

Tomorrow I get out of Ephesus at 11:30.  I will walk over and buy sunscreen and then later go to the pool again.  Tuesday is my last day at Ephesus.  Then, I have a long break.  Extended School Year starts on the 25th.

I’ve run out of things to say.  And I’m tired.

-Me

How come I end up where I started?

So,

I finished reading Choke.  And when I went to the mall on Tuesday I bought Bright Shiny Morning, Are You There Vodka It’s Me Chelsea, and Murder on the Orient Express.  I’ve started the first two.  The vodka one is a collection of super funny short stories that I like to read before bed because they make me happy.  The first book I read when I have time during the day.  I don’t quite know how I feel about it right now.  I really don’t like how James Frey doesn’t really use punctuation or paragraphs and he doesn’t care about grammar.  And so far lots of bad things have happened to people.  But whatever.  I think I’ll get something by David Sedaris next.

Last week I got sushi.  It was delicious.  Mmm.  And then I went to Mapleview for my first time ever.  Yeah, it has taken five years.  Then I went to the Orange County Social Club, also for the first time ever.  I came back bitter, sad, angry, and I smelled like a giant cloud of smoke.  I wish my friends wouldn’t smoke.  It’s just such an unhealthy thing to do.  Anyway.  I told my whole you know who story to somebody new.  Somebody who doesn’t know me very well to see what an impartial person would say.  And there were a lot of ohs and oh nos.  I put some serious thought into just letting all this stupid stuff go.  What’s done is done.  But, if you know me even a little bit, you might have realized by now that I’m not good at just letting stuff go.  I hold grudges for a long long time.  But I really considered not saying any of this.  But whatever.  Do you ever feel sorry for the way you made me feel?  That is a totally serious question.  You must have realized that I must have been really hurt in order to have written so many awful things.  Do you feel even a little bit bad?  Probably not.  Do you ever wonder why I got so upset?  I guess not.

Oh well.  Thinking about it still makes me a little sad and disappointed.  I think that’s it above all else.  I’m disappointed in how things turned out.

Anyway.

I saw The Fall on Friday night and it was AMAZING!  You should go see it.  Um.  I got two more dresses at the mall today.  Generally I’m not a big fan of JCPenny.  But that’s where both of my dresses are from.  And I also got satsuma stuff from the Body Shop.  And a free sample from Godiva.  I really truly cannot believe how hot it is.

Oh and stuff with the brother is way worse than I thought before.  Way worse.  And I can’t help but to think that this wouldn’t be happening if my mom was still alive.  And that makes me even more sad.

-Me

The good things:

I saw Sex and the City yesterday and I loved it even though I cried about 15 times.

I went to the Farmer’s Market and they had my favorite flowers in the whole wide world- Cornflowers.  Yes, I know that those are weird to have as a favorite flower, but whatever.

I finished Confessions of a Jane Austen Addict.  I actually liked the book.  Well, most of it anyway.  I think that the ending is horrible.

That’s it with the good stuff.

Know how in earlier posts I was saying that when one part of my life goes well, another falls apart?  Well the other fell apart totally.  And no I am not being overly dramatic.

-Me

And I got what I got all despite you and I get what I get just to spite you.

After I got back from Ephesus today I opened my med school email.  And I had an email from my neuroanatomy professor.  The subject line was scholarship notification.  It turns out the speech and hearing scholarship committee decided to give me money.  I don’t know why.  But I’m super excited!  Money is always great to have.  But I also wonder if it’s one of those things where everybody in the program is getting money.

-Me

Everybody sees and everyone agrees that you and I are wrong and it’s been that way too long

I finished reading The History of Love.  And I loved it.  If you want to borrow it, ask.  I also started reading Confessions of a Jane Austen Addict.  It’s one of those books you don’t have to think too much about.  Hm.  I watched Lars and the Real Girl on Monday.  I thought that it was supposed to be funny.  But it was actually really sad.  Ryan Gosling is a really good actor though.  And he’s super cute.  I watched The Hoax last night and kinda liked it.

So every once in a while I check statcounter to see who is reading my blog.  Some of the people I’m sure of.  Then there are other IP addresses that I don’t recognize.  And this morning I was sort of ranting to a friend about this.  I’ll share on here too.  I don’t get why people bother reading this if they don’t talk to me.  Or if they don’t talk to me anymore and they live far away…let’s say the Bronx, just for example.  Sure I read blogs every once in a while of people I don’t talk to anymore.  But I was friends with them and we still have friends in common.  Maybe somebody in the Bronx, just using that to be consistent, just randomly typed in a web address and ended up on my blog site.  And they thought my life was SO fascinating that they came back to check it.  And maybe it’s just a coincidence that somebody I once knew happens to be in the Bronx now.  Who knows.  Life is weird like that.  So my new blog rule: if you read this, you have to talk to me or live in North Carolina or Boston.  Otherwise go away and leave me alone.

I love my placement!

I’m so happy right now.  It’s sort of a weird feeling.  Being happy.  And this time I actually am happy.  It’s not just me being not sad.

Consolers of the Lonely is such a great album. The Raconteurs are so awesome!  And they’re going to Poland and not Chapel Hill.  Seriously.  I always send my cousin ecard for his birthday.  His is the 25th of May.  This time I sent him a really not great one because I didn’t feel like searching for something good.  Bleah.

I tried a new sushi place yesterday.  It’s called Tsunami and it’s next to Mardi Gras Bowling.  It’s better than Sushi Yoshi and Akai Hana.  But not better than Oishii and Shiki Sushi.

TCBY has really bad vanilla milkshakes.  I have a sort of related story, but no time to write it now.

Later.

-Me

Do you like bearded men?

GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT!!!!!

You remember that French movie trailer I put up on one of my posts a few months ago?  You know for the musical?  Well it’ll be playing at the Varsity (or Chelsea) starting Friday.  I’ll even tell you a secret…I’m more excited about seeing it than Sex and the City.  Oh my goodness..and The Fall (the really awesome movie with Lee Pace) comes out on Friday too!  Wowzers.  I have a lot of movies to see next weekend.  This means that I need to find people to see them with.

Yesterday I went to the mall and bought stuff that I love.  For the past couple of weeks I have been looking for a new happy sundress.  I have lots and lots, but I haven’t bought any new ones in a while.  And I bought one that’s really cute at The Limited.  It goes just above the knee and it’s cotton and it’s gray and white.  I also bought the perfect pair of jeans that I had been looking for.  They’re not too tight anywhere and they’re just the right length.  I can wear them with my flats to Ephesus and wear my cute shirt that I bought at Anne Taylor Loft.  I always feel really old when I go in there, because all the other people there are 40 year old women.  But it’s okay.  I like their shirts.  And I bought some super fun stuff at Victoria’s Secret.

And then yesterday afternoon I saw the new Indiana Jones movie.  I actually liked it a lot.  Shia LaBeouf did way better than I expected.  You see, I don’t like him very much.  Cate Blanchett was really great too.  Yeah, I said it even though I really don’t like her in general.

And earlier today I went to the Sarah Duke Gardens.  It was lovely and much busier than I’ve ever seen it.  All the roses smelled so good. And when we were leaving, I saw two brides.  There was a wedding reception being set up in the building and there was a whole other wedding party going into the actual garden probably to take pictures.  I want to have pretty wedding pictures done in a garden somewhere.

Um.  I just started watching La Dolce Vita.  You know what?  Although I’ve heard of the movie a million times and I know there’s a scene where Sylvia is drunk and goes into the water fountain (or something like that), I really have no idea what the movie is about.  The guy playing Marcello is so good looking. And I love the name Marcello.  A cute name for a cat maybe?

Should I do something for my birthday?

-Me

P.S.  I miss you.

You may say that I’m a dreamer but I’m not the only one.

I got back to Chapel Hill Sunday evening and I’ve been in the house alone since then.  Both the roommates are gone.  So it’s just me and Kitten.  Yesterday I went to Chipotle because I hadn’t been there in a really long time.  And you know what?  It made me sick.  I felt nauseated the entire evening and there was heartburn and it was just not pleasant.  Tomorrow I don’t have to be at Ephesus until 10.  Usually it’s 8.  And to be there around 8 I have to wake up at 6:30 (6 if I take a shower in the morning).  That’s the thing that’s not so great.  I haven’t had to get up that early for a while.  Hm.

Know how I was reading Suite Francaise?  Well I got to the part about the priest and it made me so sad that I had to take a break.  So I read Lost, which is by the guy that wrote Wicked, Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister, etc.  It was okay.  And then I read Sundays at Tiffany’s, which was just okay too.  Now I’m half done with The History of Love by Nicole Krauss.  I love it.  Then I’ll read Confessions of a Jane Austen Addict.  And then maybe I’ll go back to Suite Francaise.

I’m watching American Idol.  I hope David Cook wins even though he has a gigantic forehead.

Um.

The season finale of One Tree Hill made me not happy.  I’d like to think that Lucas called Peyton at the end, BUT I’ll have to wait until October to see if he called her or maybe Lindsay or Brooke.

-Me

P.S.  I wish The Raconteurs were coming to Chapel Hill.

P.S.S.  Was there some sort of nasty senior prank at Raleigh Charter?

Keep your leotards on, this is not Brazil.

I LOVE MY PLACEMENT!

When I first found out that most of the kids I’d be working with at Ephesus are developmentally delayed and/or have autism, I was a kind of scared.  But I love them.  They’re so cute and wonderful.  I have a few artic kids on my caseload.  With the others ones I get to read and play games and play dress up and make books and take pictures.  My supervisor told me that usually she lets the grad students observe her for a week or two and then they pick up one kid every few days.  But since there isn’t much time left in the school year, I was just thrown into doing the therapy after only observing her with the kids once.  That was scary.  There are a bunch of places in NYC now that are hiring CFYs to work with developmentally disabled kids and AAC devices.  Hopefully in a year there’ll be other similar positions.  Oh yeah and on that first day that I did therapy I programmed and used my first ever AAC device.  I also learned how to make Jeopardy on PowerPoint.

You know how when one part of your life goes great another part goes not so great?  Well.  School is going great.  And all the boy problems are finished.  BUT I now have proof that my brother is doing something I wish he wasn’t and I don’t know what to do.  If I just say something to him he won’t listen.  I can threaten him.  I can tell my dad.  But this will make my dad super angry.  So I’m stuck.  Ugh.

I’m excited about the Indiana Jones movie this Friday.  AND I’m super excited about the Sex and the City movie.

Hurray for little kids that need to go to speech therapy!

-Me

P.S.  If you know anybody who is looking for a place to live starting August, let me know…